Meeting You Again

A couple of weeks ago I was having coffee with a new friend. As we were getting to know each other and sharing stories about what brought us to this point in life, she stopped me when I mentioned my sister. “Is she as outgoing as you? Because you seem pretty extroverted,” she asked.

I almost dropped my typical objections:
No, I’m really an introvert.
I’m more shy than I seem.
I’m only this outgoing when I really get to know someone.
You should see me in large groups, I’m not outgoing at all!

But then I stopped myself and really thought about my answer for a moment. I used to be shy. Used to being the operative word. She was right, I am pretty outgoing.

I enjoy making new friends, I love connecting people and I really want to dig deep beyond the surface and get to know someone. I may not be a complete extrovert, as I have to recharge with a little quiet alone time, but I do gain some amount of energy from being around others and have become pretty outgoing.

So why was I still claiming to be the shy, quiet girl I was when I was younger? Because I don’t think I’d reflected on how much I’ve changed over the years.

For example, those who know me best have always called me an old soul (me almost to a T). I definitely would agree to that, but I’ve also developed an adventurous spirit. My heart sings when I think about exploring faraway places and {hopefully} living oversees one day. My sense of adventure has become such an integral part of me that when I think about qualities I’ll need in a partner, that has now moved to the top of my little list.

I’ve also been quick to cut others off when they call me brave or bold for taking the plunge and moving to Chicago without a job.

No, that’s not me, I’m not brave.
I may be stubborn, but I’m definitely not brave.
Crazy might be a better word. haha
It wasn’t me, it was all God.

Now, that last one has a lot of truth to it. But He did give me boldness and a brave heart to even have the desire to do what I did. And I’m so thankful for that! So I need to embrace who I’ve become instead of minimizing it.

It’s possible for your character to drastically change. It doesn’t happen all at once, but little by little, as a result of life’s experiences. That’s probably why we’re the last to notice when it’s happened to us. It’s much more likely that someone who hasn’t seen you for years will notice it when you reconnect (which has also happened to me recently). Sometimes you just have to stop and meet yourself again.

Who am I?
What am I interested in?
What do I value?
What do I stand for?
How do I want to impact others?

After a series of conversations the last couple of weeks I’ve realized I need to do that. I need to meet Kiara Goodwin, circa 2015, instead of continuing to see myself as Kiara Goodwin, circa 2006 or 2008 or even 2012. A lot has happened since then and I’ve changed – I’d like to think for the better – but let’s find out, shall we?

5 Comments Add yours

  1. emgood625 says:

    It’s a joy watching you navigate real life. Go get ’em.

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  2. Ally Haefner says:

    this. yes, this.
    I needed these words today. You are a gem, and I am so thankful to know Kiara circa 2013-2015. you are brave, kind, intentional, and a true, deep friend. love ya deep!

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    1. You are too sweet. So glad these words could encourage you today. For me, that’s the deepest of compliments. Love you and miss you more!

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  3. Mommy says:

    Wow, I must say you are not only my daughter, but also my Teacher.
    So we’ll stated and true!
    I have really enjoyed watching you and God taking the world by the horns.
    What a pleasure and so proud!!!!!
    Love you 🙌

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    1. Thank you! Couldn’t do it without you! 😘

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